Dying In the West

Fearlessness, Certainty, Non-doing, Non-engagement

Today concluded the Journey of the West, we ventured up into a beautiful hideaway of a fellow messa carrier apprentice. We began by dying, a funny way to begin a days activities but I  could think of no better a place to allow an aspect of self to die. Dying in the west is similar to the dying of the physical body as the energy that dies is returned to source as they serve no more. We were instructed to search within ourselves for the aspect that should Die to us today, after searching myself I realised that what needed to die to me was the concept of Duality, the illusion that my experience is my own, or that spirit shines more in me than compared to those that are not on my current level of consciousness. After we each selected what would die today we were to find some items that represented this energy, create a bundle and offer it up in fire ceremony. I found an Acorn with pieces missing, looking at it I acknowledged that the pieces that were missing were still of the same Acorn they were not separate so I decided to put it into my bundle, the second Item that I saw was a leaf that was shaped like a Heart, I asked the plant if I could use it in ceremony and when I was taking it from the plant the leaf tore, I figured this was perfect as again it resembled the aspect of duality and separation that I was letting go of today.
We each after creating our bundle spoke on what we were letting go of, I explained that Duality still retains aspects of Ego, for we associate ourselves based on our understanding or level of consciousness and reject guidance from those that are not on our level or above, but if spirit can speak to us through a stone, an ant, or a hawk more so the man that has reasoning faculties like us all, how ashamed I felt at the realisation that though I knew in theory that we are not separate but due to our conditioning growing up we tend to automatically fall back into this view of I know, I am , We know, We are, not acknowledging spirit in each and everyone of us, I wanted to allow this aspect of myself to Die.
My fellow Apprentice desired to have that child within him Die, this child was gifted and did not receive due praise from family and loved ones for it so he grew up resenting others but today that energy of resentment and requiring others approval.
The shamanic mentor gave up the energy of limits, limiting ones self emotionally, physically and spiritually.
All that was dying today was shared amongst all participants there.
After creating the fire ceremony we noticed the Bundle of the Teacher caught in flames almost instantaneously he brought our attention to it so I decided to consciously focus on what I was letting go and speak about it, after talking about the dying of ego, of self righteousness I saw my bundle went in flames, my fellow apprentice blew upon his bundle and so all caught in flames and returned to creation.

The next step in the days journey was practicing extraction, extraction is a shamanic modality used to remove solid energy, another way to term it is crystalized energy that is not necessarily negative it simply doesn't serve you any more, it can have the form of an animal, a shape, a mythical being anything the mind can perceive, the practice is to track the energy of the client and when you have found the energy that serves no more remove it from there body and send it to the light, to creation.
The method I used was to track the individual's energy and confirm my findings by intuitively asking the client to visualise a statue and through the description of the statue and the energy around it I would confirm the form and area inwhich this dense energy was stuck in the client.
We were finally at the end of the day initiated as Daykeepers experiencing experiences beyond time itself .
Now as the west ends and I approach the North I will refelct upon:
Fearlessness- dying, extraction, tracking using the perceptual bodies entering into the shamanic seeing state
Certainty- Dying, change, chaos to order,Spirit
Non-Doing - Allowing spirit to take charge,
Non-engagement -Illumination , extraction, Dispacho 

Kuya's of the West

To connect with my Kuya's for the west I had to Journey into the middle world  and sat in front of a pond with my three kuya's, Black stone, Red stone and yellow stone.
The Black stone represented a life in which I had no power, I was caucasian living in the lower lands of Scotland, family was poor extremely poor and I saw myself begging for scraps, living on the streets and dying alone.
The Red stone represented a life in which I had power, and abused them, I was in Africa from a poor family but this version of myself did what ever was necessary to make a living, whether stealing, selling posion as herbs, selling my body, he had no love in his heart and did not know love, his main intention to get what he needed by whatever means even at the cost of his family, I saw myself enter that life as a child, grow through as a teenager and died in the early 30's by myself violently.
The Yellow Stone represented a life in which I had power and used it for good, I was in Lankshire Scotland growing up in a middle classed family, The difference is that this life I was proficient in spiritual knowledge and was emotionally stable, he was able to get a scholarship got to endinburgh finish his course as a doctor and went back to the humble commuity in which he grew up to take care of the community, I saw his death and he was surrounded by everyone in the community and honoured for the love he shared.
I threw all the stones into the pond to separate my identity from those lives, and accepted that during the time of no power that was an illusion I created, during the time of abusing power I used it for selfish means.
Finally appropriately using my powers with the yellow stone was using my gifts to benefit spirit.

I created Clay work to represent the 3 stones and 3 lives:
                                                   Black stone - life with no Power

Red Stone - Life with Power Abused

Yellow Stone - Life with Power Used For others

the west 2 journey to otorongo

I am told by my mentor to bring 3 stones red, black and yellow these will be my kuyas for the West. We started with a journey to the lower world to learn about the loving relationship of nature. I close my eyes and move my consciousness down an ants nest through the earth and arrive in a cave, I exit the cave and I am in a lush forest Paradise. I venture down a trodden path and meet with huascar the inca guardian of the lower world he carried me up a river and tiger leaped out at us, he quickly struck the ground with his staff and froze the tiger in place explaining that this is how they are protective of their space but like this we can pass for now. I finally find otorongo who tells me to merge with her as she embarks on a hunt so I can experience the loving law of nature.
We spot an antelope alone far from the others we slowly sneak upon it and pounce from the brushes with one bite we end it's life consuming to our full of its flesh and rest afterwards. I when nature calls we had to a true dig near it and release the parts of the meal that do not serve us then we cover it. I when I separate from otorongo I leave with a realization of the loving cycle of nature. The antelope feeds off the grass the jaguar feeds of the antelope and the jaguar returns to the soil at death where it is again part of the grass, nature requires balance day and night, inhale and exhale life and death, too much death is just as bad as too much life for if there were only herbivores it would deplete vegetation and create imbalance thus the necessity of carnivores like wise too many carnivores would be chaotic as there would be too many predators and a very dangerous place to live. Man does not meat naturally which offends nature as we try to herd cattle which is not natural and comes from a feeling of lack not abundance as the jaguar thanks creator for providing each meal and worries, not if or when the next meal will be provided. Jaguar understands its role to ensure balance to take only what is necessary and allowed by nature trusting always in the abundance. I realised that because we do not hunt or kill the meat we consume we do not see the creator in each meal, the fortune in perfect timing, the gift of divine lighting and the blessings of untainted meat truly a gift from the creator. We must honour what we consume and understand we to will be consumed and eventually transmuted so is the law of nature.

The beginning of the West

I do my second illumination in the presence of my mentor guiding the participants through their river of life culminating in revelations of their healing needs and spiritual guidance in beginning their healing journey. After being introduced to the energy of the West and the archetype otorongo I am told to contemplate on the love the jaguar feels for the antelope as it takes its life. I am taught destiny tracking a shamanic technique that involves going into an altered state of consciousness This involves several physical preparations that expands your awareness then you attempt to read what is known as the perceptual states, and you ask the serpent to allow you to see signs from their physical body, and the jaguar to see the mythic / mind and emotions, the humming bird to see past or future lives of the soul and the eagle to encompass them all in your message from spirit. I had difficulties at first as my eyes would start to water when the visions were coming through so I left and continually practicing until I understood scientifically what was happening. During this time your eyes are fixed on the client/participant for so long with no change in focus or gaze that your mind stops receiving signals from your brain and starts sending so you begin to see prompting from your subconscious that to the trained mind tells a story of the client on all levels.